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Monday, March 12, 2007

this is it.
no more excuses.
let's see what i can accomplish this year when excuses no longer have a role in my life.
my super delayed new year resolution.
and yes, its one of the rare few that i made with conviction.

after feeling rather depressed and miserable for 3 big quarters of the day
i finally got sick of myself.
i forgot since when i have become such a weakling.
its like.. the baorong who would take on tough opponents and endure tough trainings suddenly vanished into the past.
and now, what remains is only this whining piece of complaining-machine that keeps rattling out excuses after excuses so that she doesn't have to do anything hard.

cummon.
i chose this path knowing full well the difficulties that lie ahead.
so who am i to complain about all these things when its all expected?
life is meant to be enjoyed. (quote eugene haha)
and if my life is going to be full of all these tests and exams and memorizing weird bugs and drugs,
i am going to learn to enjoy it.
all these inanimate stuff are not going to get me down.
i am not gonna make my whole life miserable and down just because of these tests, which i chose, and i can't control.
there is more to life man.
i am going to enjoy every single moment of my life.
because there is only going to be one March 12 2007 in my whole entire life, and i am not going to let this moment pass in misery, only to look back in reminiscence and wish that i had done something else.
yes, studying is important.
but life is about learning, and loving the learning process.
that's exactly what i'm gonna do.
life is gonna be filled with never ending tests.
written tests, tests of character, verbal tests..
i'm gonna learn to embrace them all..!

there i was in the previous entry, lamenting the "lack" of challenges to hone my character.
its only now that i realise i've been choosing not to see these tests as challenges, cos i want to escape them.
so i've been wallowing in self pity about my never ending tests..
none of that from now on!

haha..
how's that for 3 hours of sitting at the play ground and reflecting on my life and what a wuss i've been?
dear friends and family, help me keep my new year resolution, if i make any excuses, deliberately or otherwise,
please just drop me a gentle reminder not to do so..
ciao! :)

__pondering* 6:43 PM :)