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UGHZ

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

I AM FEELING SO BLOODY ANAL.

crap.

stupid hormones

stupid responsibilities

stupid stomach

stupid everything.

__pondering* 11:14 PM :)

pride

Thursday, August 10, 2006

something that my friend and i were discussing one day suddenly popped into my mind..

how do we quantify pride? do some people have more pride than others?

so this person has been a high flyer all along.
does that mean he has more pride than someone else who might not have been as outstanding?
can we quantify pride by measuring past acheivements?
is it more "shameful" and "mei mian zi" for this person to fail to attain something as compared to the other person, because the former supposedly has more pride than the latter?

was lying in my bed and thinking about this last night.
i decided that pride stems from reaching your own expectations, it is not a function of the cumulative achievements of a person.

you might be a roadsweeper, but if you put your heart into your job regardless of social opinion, and you really believe in what you are doing, who is to say you have less pride than some other manager?

my friend was saying that a high flyer will feel more upset and ashamed than a plain jack when he fails because he has more pride. so this was how this whole topic came about..

so.. i was thinking, does the amount of pride someone has anything to do with his rebound from his fall?

i guess on first thought, it would seem that the more pride a person has, the harder the fall will be, and also, the harder it is to stand up and recover.

but i beg to differ.

the more pride a person has, the faster he will recover. pride comes from self belief ya? the proud person believes he can do it, and he does it. yep..

seems like we humans spend too much time worrying about other people's opinions about us. but i guess what really matters is our own opinion of ourselves. because it is the only opinion that can really change the direction of our lives :)

__pondering* 5:16 PM :)