Friday, January 06, 2006
wow.. the past 3 days have been fun.. haven't felt the adrenaline rush for ages.. the thrill and fear of being in a competition.. of knowing that your every shot counts toward the win or loss of a larger organization.. i guess ivp isn't inter-school ultimately.. i was recalling the past inter-school competitions.. and the one image that never fails to resurface is that of julia playing.. all of us outside holding each others' hands.. telling ourselves to have faith.. faith in our training, our hardwork, our drive, our team mate.. and the ecstasy and joy and crazy surge of emotion when we won mgs in our c div.. jumping screaming crying running around kallang squash courts, unable to believe we finally did it..
and of course, there were the many other competitions.. always against mgs.. always very exciting matches.. but i guess why the c division finals stuck in my mind is because it was our first taste of success.. the first time we felt saw the result of our hardwork and faith materialise before our eyes.. the thrill of beating the very people who thrashed our seniors and avenging them.. of upsetting the coach who didn't think very much of us..( maybe he did and i'm just biased)..
i guess jc inter school wasn't as great.. the team was split up.. the bond and comarderie we have forged with one another were gone.. it is indeed true that happiness multiply as you divide it among more people.. even though the team comprised the same number of people, i guess our spirits were not as united.. as such, the joy wasn't all that overwhelming..
anyway.. yesh.. ivp drew to a close as we await the beginning of a new semester of hardwork and craziness.. 2 more squash competitions coming up.. many things i have to work on.. and many more things to test my mental..
i feel that i am not as disciplined and determined as before.. all these breaks have made me weak mentally.. i think squash has a big part to play in moulding the way i think.. i think all squashies will agree with that. yes.. i should start setting goals.. shud really start to sit down and think about what i want.. and then really work on it..
and talking about goals.. i admire baoxin for her courage :) you are a brave girl dearest.. i wish you success.. what matters is not the destination.. it is the courage to actually sort out your dreams, and pluck out the courage to embark on the path toward what you want. i don't have that sort of courage.. and i really respect you for that :)
thanks to suriya.. :) my new year resolution shall be to stop making excuses! so anytime you guys hear me doing exactly the opposite.. please bang me hard on the head! :)
happy 2006 to everyone!
