_living each day*

and its back to school..

Sunday, January 08, 2006

wow.. i can't believe time passes so fast.. first its the brand new year.. next, its already the start of a brand new semester.. i can't believe i have survived through half of 1st year of medical school.. but well.. there's the second half to go through now..

it isn't as scary to think of going back to school now as compared to the previous "pending first day of school".. at least now i'm in a familiar environment, seeing familiar faces, doing something familiar.. but to think about it.. actually its not that familiar after all.. the subjects are going to be more challenging.. it is going to get more stressful as the final year looms nearer.. the exams, with those alien-looking questions which demand 5 ball-point pens' worth of answers are beginning to freak me out.. and of course, i worry about being able to juggle my time well.. balancing work, play, socializing, caring for people around me, doing things to enrich myself, relax, squash..

and of course, i am so reluctant to leave my warm cosy bed at the unearthly time of 6am, which is 4 hours earlier than usual..

i have been spending a lot of time with mum this hols.. and I am feeling very happy about it.. its just nice to be around her, talk crap with her, just be in her presence.. accompany her to the market..

but on a lighter note, it is going to be chinese new year soon!! hooray! the marketplace is basking with this festive spirit.. new year songs playing, a sea of red all around.. posters, lanterns, colourful flowers, vases, stickers, chun lian, new year goodies.. every other day, my mum returns home from the market and shows me the cute creative ang bao packets she bought from some stall.. i must say that people are getting more creative nowadays! but sadly, i think cny and many of the traditional festivals will not be so widely celebrated now.. i don't even think i will remember to pray to my ancestors, burn paper money for them during the 7th month, burn incense, eat dumpling yadayada.. maybe eat dumpling yes.. cos commercialized society will make use of any "festival" to burn a hole in consumers' pockets..

but yep.. all i have to conclude is.. i don't want to go back to school..! whine.. wo bu yao zhang da!!!

__pondering* 8:13 PM :)