Thursday, December 01, 2005
i have no idea why i am blogging when my eyes are half closed.. but well.. i just miss blogging and reflecting on my life.. guess i have been reflecting too much on those crazy biochem anat physio stuff.. and that is so so so wrong.. life's more than anat and physio and biochem. haha..
first things first.. where's your blog bx? pls dun tell me you're back into hibernation.. i've not spoken to you for like.. centuries..
jess mich jamie hp ness betty! i miss all of you!! so much!!! i had this dream that day.. alamak.. its so funny..
jess mich and i were in some lecture theatre.. it's not a normal theatre.. its really funny lo.. we were talking about the number of hours we slept.. and then jess showed us this real cool x-ray stuff.. there was this hollow lumen, and then there are little bulbs/tumour-like stuff on the mouth of the lumen.. and jess told us the number of nodules you have represent the number of hours you slept that day.. (oh my goodness, i just realized the whole xray image looks like haemorrhoids in black and white. freaky. in all those funny 3 o'clock position etc.... aaahhh)
ya anyway back to the xray.. she said in that lt, if you stand at that specific spot and then someone press some button at the top of the lt, you'll get that x-ray-sleeping time revealing thing done and printed out.. wow.. super cool.. i'm amazed at my unconscious brain. just what kind of stupid things have i been thinking during the day??!!
then the 3 of us were teleported to some beach.. mich was suntanning (with the nice cap that i got her of cos!) and jess suddenly told us she could windsurf.. and then she dived into the sea and started swimming beautifully.. then she resurfaced and.. i dunno what happened after that.. i only knew i was so so so impressed!!
well anyway.. that dream made me realise i miss you gurls a whole BIG lot. these gurls who have been such an integral part of my life, these gurls who were with me thru ups and downs.. so sad i dun get to meet up with mich and jess and jam even though we're in nus.. bah.
on to another topic.. hmmm.. have to say again that i think life, or rather, fate is just amazing.. do you all believe everything is predestined? i dunno if this is called predestined or whatever.. but it never fails to amaze me how friends can come into your life, leave a footprint, make you realise something, learn something, then gradually fade away from your life, and then come back into your life again.. everything is simply amazing.. paths converge, diverge, converge back again.. i wonder how many people who have faded away will appear in my life once again.. i hope people in my life now won't fade away.. i love them all.
anyway, exams are over! Finally. FINALLY! i have so many things to say about exams.. but i'm too tired to continue on. i can't continue to deceive myself that what i am studying is not important, cos they are really important. nvm.. i'm gonna go crazy this hols.. haha..
have been driving around.. ie to school and back, and jurong point... driving is fun.. but dangerous too.. goodness.. i need a better sense of direction. i have no idea how to go to town from my house.. or go anywhere.. really pathetic.. and i just found out i have some paint scraped off from the car on the left side.. i'm hoping my parents won't see it.. but its impossible cos its quite a big patch. bah bah bah.. i'm gonna get my head barked off.. did i get it from the multi storey carpark yesterday??? aaaahhhhhhh.... let's pray it had been there eons ago, just that i did not see it before.. :(
jurong point is full of underaged lians. i feel so disgusted and ^$%^# by all those girls i see dancing ddr and parapara at the arcade.. please! how old are they? i bet they are only p6! and what are they wearing?! miniskirts! mini till it can barely cover their gluteus maximus. *shudder* behaving like they're some mini j-pop queen. oh my.. if my daughter turns out like that next time *choy* i dunno whether i should knock my head agst the wall for being such a bad parent, or knock her head on the wall instead. what are the parents of those girls doing?! are they oblivious to all these stuff? don't they think it is ridiculous for a girl of only 12 to dress up like she's 16, go gallivanting in the arcade.. waste money, waste time, learn bad stuff.. i'll just give these parents a good chiding if i ever see them. if you want to have kids, you jolly well parent them properly. dun ruin one small life because of your indifference and obsession with work and money. if you love money so much, just keep working and dun reproduce. irritating what excuses parents can come up with. i believe nothing can go wrong with good parenting. hate irresponsible parents. i dun think they are so dumb to think that it is normal for 12 year old girls to wear miniskirts and i dunno what kind of tops and loiter in the arcade.
oh at least these girls are not doing funny things with the underaged bengs in the arcade. hopefully they are too young to know what heyhey-ing is.
i wish i have the power to do something about it. like slam the parents' heads against the wall or something and scold them till they cry and beg for forgiveness. (gosh why am i so angsty?) lives are to be moulded. pay your kids attention man! teach them the right thing from young! guide them toward the correct path! dun let them regret what they have been doing when they finally wake up from their frolicking stupor, and by then it is too late to do anything to redeem their wasted lives.
i wonder why i am so angsty about this. it doesn't even concern me. but i guess over these years, i have realised that parenting is really important. the child's character is so so so influenced by what his parents have been exposing him to! his confidence, his outlook on life, his positivity, his attitude toward work and play, the way he interacts with others, his morality.. i remember having a long conversation with my primary school teacher about this.. aaahh, i miss her...
i hope people who are so frail from not eating (how can you not eat??!) and not sleeping during the exams will wake up and understand what kind of damage they are doing to their bodies, and do something before it is too late. it is stupid to ruin your body. what's the point of being an unhealthy doctor?
oh no.. my eyes are officially 7/8th closed. better sign off..
hopefully i'll have a better reflective entry when i regain my full consciousness in the near future.. haha..
goodnight all! and rejoice! for s,ffering is temporarily over!!!
