Sunday, October 09, 2005
wow.. i just realised i have posted 295 posts ever since the start of this blog.. what a magical number!
i just feel like blogging but i have no idea what to blog about..
bah.
ok. maybe lets talk about the channel 8 dragon show.. whine. its gonna end on monday! then i'll have no more show to commit to! ok. i'll commit to the next 7 o'clock show. which is the tong xin yuan show?! bah. i'll miss the chiobu and shuai ge.. aiyo.. whine whine whine. i'm such a tv addict. addicted to the escape from reality that tv shows allow me, and addicted to brainless stuff.. i wonder how some of my friends can get by like just mugging and MUGGING and not watching tv or going out or anything.. i think i'd rather die than live that kind of life. what's the point of studying so hard? i mean.. in the end, you are in this cycle called life. and the purpose of life is to contribute and enjoy yourself. oh man. if enjoying yourself means mugging the hell out of your brain.. then happy new year lo. but ya.. what's the point of studying so so so so hard and forgo the other good things in life? its totally not worth it. i guess life is this trial and error process whereby you try to balance the "main purpose" ie the contributing part, together with the "enjoying nice things in life" part. some ppl never ever find that balance in life. oh what a sad life they have.
right now, my priority is my family. how i love them...
talking about that..
i was reading some chinese sec 2 compo that day.. and it was about this girl writing about her dad.. like.. suddenly, she got so touched by the things that her dad did for her.. and she realised the greatness of her dad...
in my case.. i have always known how wei da my dad is.. the hardships he goes thru just to put a roof over my head and food into my mouth.. i know how tough his life his.. and i really love and respect him for all the sacrifices he gave..
but.. sometimes i simply detest, even hate him for the things he do.. like bully my mum. like.. all the irrational things he do that piss and irk me. behaving like some.. jerk and childish man who has lost his sense of rationality. all the crazy things he do.. i really have a traditional dad. that kind of last century dad who only bothers about bringing money and food back to the house but doesn't care about the other going-ons in the household. dun talk to the children.. come home then just sleep. eat. watch tv. talk on the phone to his sister instead of to his children and his wife. then what's the point of setting up a family man? so that you can stress yourself out and complain to your sister? so that you can hone your cold war skills by practising it on your wife over stupid little things that are your own fault in the first place? grow up old man. you are old on the outside. but sometimes i feel that you are even more childish than the child who pouts cos his mum refuses to buy him a lollipop. at least the child gets over it after a free minutes. but you? i wonder how long it will take for this yet another cold war to end. get a life man. what's the point of working so hard, and realising that in the end, you've gotten nothing in return cos you have not enjoyed the life you were given? you are a slave to y0our work. you get angry when we ask you to rest. ask you to take a break or holiday. aiyah whtever la. i'm tired of trying to talk to this stick in the mud.
