_living each day*

Sunday, October 16, 2005

feel rather sad after reading jess's blog.. just feel very sad.. but i can't discretely list down the reason.. bah..

its rather sad to think that in the end, all these stuff that we are doing now will end up to nothing..

ok.. its one of my pms ramblings..

i did nothing during this weekend. i feel very very very bad.. its a horrible feeling.. like i just wasted all these time.. horrible..

squash on fri, tuition, og outing, family outing to imm on saturday, watching tv and going to car showrooms today..

oh my.. that's where my time went too.. puff in a cloud of smoke. how to make up for all these lost time? horrible....

and its even more horrible that i'm actually feeling horrible over these kind of things that will eventually amount to nothing..

its just horrible that i can't even control something i know is horrible..

ok.. everything's just horrible now ya?

its horrible what hormones can do to you.

guys should have these hormones injected into them and taste what girls go thru.. so they wun complain about our pms..

but anyway, there's no one to complain about my pms this time..

the most important guy in my life is having a tough time away in taiwan.. sighz.
when will you come back?
and even when you are back, when will you have time to spend with me?
time.. what a hateful enemy.
i'm greedy. i am not contented with just a few hours. i want more. i want to see you everyday. i want to see you every hour of everyday.
but that dream will never ever come!
after army, we'll be separated by the many many oceans and time zones.

gosh.

what a horrible life that is.

why am i complaining when i am already so lucky?

and why did michelle's blog suddenly disppear from the virtual world?

why??

__pondering* 10:26 PM :)