Thursday, June 30, 2005
help.. suffering from book withdrawal syndrome.. just gobbled up Digital Fortress by Dan Brown.. ahhh. cryptology sounds very interesting.. it'd be nice to know more about it.. but yeah.. lazy me will never get down to that.. aiyah.. anything that you don't have to study for a test or exam IS interesting!! who doesn't like to discover more about the amazing things happening around or inside us? exploring things at your own pace, marvelling at the wonders of it all.. understanding it without any stress is definitely fun.. MUGGING kills it ALL.. ahh. can't believe all of us are gonna be MUGGING very soon. *shudders again* MUG MUG MUG. it takes away the joy in learning. irritating qin shi huang. invented imperial exams.. hmph. bu not his fault. exams would have appeared sooner or later. hmph.
help help.. suffering from this gaping hole within me.. an emptiness cos i've cleared the borrowed books on my table.. the agony of knowing that there're no more books left for you to devour immediately as and when you like it is horrible. feels like there's no meaning to exist anymore.. not that there's a reason to exist when i'm reading, but at least it seems so.. seems like i exist alongside the characters in the book. haha.. i think i'm exaggerating! paisei!! but i guess you guys will understand that feeling.. like what bx said.. its just like immersing urself into a drama serial and when it ends, you just wanna cry cos there's nothing else.. boo..
i think that i can be extreme sometimes.. but ya.. i can never be extreme about emotions in real life. ok, perhaps only pain. haha. i can feel intense sadness, happiness, or *movedness* when i read or watch shows, but it seems like i can't experience them in real life. perhaps its due to the lack of words to capture the allure of the moment, or the ability to know the tenderness or emotions of others around you.. i guess what touches me or makes me feel in books is the way everything seems so romantic.. whereby words paint a picture you imagine.. but in real life, there are no words.. you see things only from one perspective-- your own. you don't know how the other party feels. you can't rise from your body and take in the mesmerizing big picture.. no 2nd or 3rd perspectives to add to the experience. everything just happen. while words can capture the littlest of emotions, the tiniest details of the surroundings that create the ambience, and give you a moment to soak in the "feel" and imagine, reality can't. of course, reality wins hands down cos you really feel, but real feelings are seldom as pleasurable as those you feel when you read. ah, i guess all i'm trying to say is that i'm an emotional moron in real life. haha.
and i guess its also cos "unreal" stuff only focus on the main things.. take for example when your beloved brings you to a mountain top to gaze at stars and u finally reach the mountain top.. tv serials and books only talk about the destination.. factor in the journey and the 'unhappening' period along the journey, and also factor how you already saw some stars along the way, and the other people who unfortunately also share the earth with you.. that simply takes away the magic of the moment and kills it ya? now that i think of it, it's rather ridiculous how the innocent lead actress spirals away on the green grassy hill, so happy to be dancing under the myraid of stars when she has already seen the stars during the climb up the moutain and has predicted what she will see.. that accumulated, explosive kind of joy is only possible if she has been blindfolded.. in reality, things are diffused. not concentrated in that few magical moments when you suddenly reach the moutain top. in stories, mundane stuff are brought across in a few seconds.
oops, sorry, i have no idea why i'm writing about all the above actually. just some fei fu zhi yan.. haha.. :) ciao.
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
ah-ah.. seems like dan brown made quite a few serious bloopers in angels and demons.. in retrospect, it is indeed funny why the head of CERN was nonplussed when vittoria told him she knew how to make antimatter when first year physics students learn that antimatter is created all the time, anywhere.. and ya.. it's funny why they couldn't just turn off the circuits one by one to find out where that camera was, and why they couldn't detect any magnetic field from the camera itself.. aahh.. perhaps im not making sense to most of you.. but ya.. the book's a good read.. perhaps you can challenge urself to find out the discrepancies and then check with wikipedia..
oohh, and it is indeed amusing to be able to find an entry on RI, RGS, and RJC (super updated somemore.. includes a pic on the new RJ!!) on wikipedia.. very interesting indeed.. :)
howdy peeps! i apologize for my apparent demise from the electronic world, for i've been sucked into the literary world.. i can't believed i devoured.. 8 books in these few days.. woohoo!! i love to read!!!!! not books dealing with uni course or anything to that extent if you're wondering.. its too early to start on that.. i'm just devouring fiction books.. *gggrrrrrrrr* latest book is angels and demons by dan brown.. brilliant book. i'm totally in awe of mr brown.. he has such a brilliant mind and superb ablity to drop clues here and there and keep people in suspense.. yum yum..
suddenly, i crave for the curriculum in us unis.. majors and minors.. it'll be so so so great to be able to have knowledge about other things.. things that don't seem to matter much but yet intrigue the depths of your soul.. it seems ironic, and of cos, irritating, that the things you are most interested in lead you to "nothing" in life most of the time, unless you really really really have a llloooootttt of knowledge in that area and become the powerhouse in that arena.. things like symbology, astrology, astronomy bla bla bla..
and i wish i have the discipline to go read up more about the arts.. art history.. the painters, the artists, the sculptors and all the conspiracies that lie behind the pieces of canvas and museums.. before i go to europe (if i ever do), i must make sure i am relatively well versed in that area, cos i believe that's the only way things are going to make sense and only by understanding the significance of the things y0u are seeing around you can you really feel the magic of travelling.. really regretted my london and cambridge trip.. it would have been a great chance to explore the arts.. but i knew nothing about anything.. not that i do now.. but i am quite intrigued by all the stuff.. hopefully this will really end up in something.. i pray for the day when i can look at a painting and understand it's significance during the period it was created, and what the painter had wanted to imply.. aiyah, all in all, i just want robert langdon's mind for the arts.. haha..
have yu guys watched batman begins? brilliant show!!! simply brilliant! i love the way the director brings out the emotions in batman.. katie holmes is not really that drop-dead gorgeous i think.. but to each his own.. as long as mr cruise thinks she is can already.. watched a lot like love too.. that show is so porno la! the groaning and moaning.. and naked pictures.. but it has a sweet plot.. and hilarious lines.. nice show!!
betty's back! ness is back too! and baoxin is back too! bettyyyyyy... go to bangkok with us la.. 4 days only... if not only me and hp and jam.. not very fun lei.. unless we pick up some bk guys along the way.. enjoy hk jess! i'm off into the fantasy world again! ciao!
Thursday, June 23, 2005
hi! i carn believe that i have been blogging for half an hour, and the toot computer just blacked out! together with my painstakingly written entry! im currently fuming..
but anyway, for the second time i'm typing this.. i had a real great time yesterday! what i thought would be a lazy day spent reading was brightened up considerably when da ge (pong pong) wanted to date me! :) played squash at kallang.. got thrashed painfully.. its really sad to see what you have trained up for the past few years get thrown down the drain because you haven't been in touch with the game.. i wanna be good in squash again! hopefully uni will help my squash.. but ya, back to gettin thrashed.. it wasn't a good experience, trust me.. chase the ball until my lungs exploded.. got the point, and then.. alas! serve out!!! or else.. serve down!!! goodness!! i can just imagine gopal's angry face and his curses.. remembered the times he got so pissed with me serving out.. haha.. so now.. dear da ge affectionately calls me "love nine", or "perfect love", while i have no choice but to acknowledge him as "nine love".. hmph...
meet uncle latif!! the man who has watched me "grow up", and has never failed to bring a smile onto my face or make me feel at home whenever i go squashing at kallang.. he's a great man!!
and yes, cartoon pong pong.. :P
after getting whipped.. we went to the volkswagen showroom to sign some papers for his new car.. yes.. pong got another NEW car.. aahhhh.. black stylish classy volkswagen.. and being the volkswagen showroom, it was littered with.. beetle cars!!! no prizes for guessing! we beat the hell out of each other.. it must have been a funny sight.. 2 crazy people lookin wide eyed, hands posed for immediate action once the eyes spot a beetle car.. gosh.. my skin turned red man!! another of the silly games we picked up during rg times right, girls? together with the "bai yi si mi sek" pull ear thing.. haha.. its just funny to think of the slaps and ear pulling we endured during those years.. haha.. :)
haha.. the dealer who handled pong's car transaction was eyeing us weirdly.. i didn't notice that until pong told me later though.. and michelle! pong did it the "save the last dance" way! haha!
da ge: "he was giving us the weird look, so i deliberately put my arms around u, and give him a hard time trying to figure out how we're related!"
hilarious. i just hope the dealer's not that stupid to think that da ge actually bought the volkswagen for me! haha!!!
after that we ambled around in suntec.. but there's no hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy, so we decided to go to marina to watch ice princess instead.. what happened there was more hilarious!
at the ticketing booth:
da ge: hi! can i get 2 tickets for ice princess at 6.40?
female cashier: sure. that will be 14 dollars.
2 seconds later
cashier: couple seats for you? [smiles]
da ge and me: [look at each other, wide eyed, jaws dropped, incredulous]
2 seconds later
da ge and me: [burst out laughing uncontrollably]
cashier: [utterly confused]
2 seconds later:
me: da ge!! she wants to give us couple seats! [laughs hysterically]
da ge: [in between laughs] what are couple seats? [1 second later] actually, er, normal seats will do!!
2 seconds later:
[da ge and i walk away laughing like maniacs]
far away from the counter:
da ge: sweetie! 2 people actually mistook us as couples today! what's happening? i didn't know you look that old! *luffs like a cartoon*
me: [shoots him a mock angry look and rolls eyes] hey! i don't look that old ok! she must be blind lo!
da ge: ok, ok. either i look young, or you look old. i let you choose. [gives that smug cartoon look, urgh]
me: [exasperated] [glares at him wide eyed, trying to think of something vicious to say] [angry look gives way to helpless look upon realising that i am a lamb cornered, with no way out] [panicks] [mumbles]
fine! i can't be looking old, so i suppose you look young.. HMPH. but i m sure they must be blind! [shoots imaginary daggers at him with my eyes]
da ge: [pumps fist in the air with a look of triumph on his cartoon face]
yes!! YES!!! what a wonderful day this is!!! whenever you call me that three letter word again, i shall make references back to this day.. at gv marina, on 22nd june, when people mistook us for a couple and you admitted that i look young, perhaps younger than you!! ohhhh YES!!!!! [ smiles and laughs and laughs and laughs]
me: [rolls eyes and sticks out tongue] [speaks in a feeble attempt to defend myself] i'm sure lo! this will only last for today! tomorrow, you'll grow so old, and i'll become so young, no one will think we're a couple again!! hmph!
da ge: you wanna bet?
me: bet then bet la!
da ge: accept the truth, sweetie! [hideous laughter erupts]
goodness.. that cartoon man! he's 19 yrs older than us!! wonder what those people were thinking! haha!!
but ya, ice princess was great! nice show! makes me wish i can ice skate.. i felt so scared when they did their triple jumps and stuff.. afraid that they'll land wrongly and break their ankles or something like that.. but its such a graceful elegant sport! the show's pretty good! and there were only 3 couples in the cinema, but there were 4 guys! haha.. da ge's positively sure that the pair of guys was gay.. cos he saw them feeding each other popcorn! and then nosy me was trying to snoop around.. quite an interesting experience to watch a movie with 5 people sharing the cinema with you.. haha.. and trying to notice the gay couple out of the corner of my eye.. haha.. :P one guy actually went out in the middle of the show to giant and bought a whole big bag of tidbits.. and i carn see much of what they were going cos they were lying low in their seats... hhhmmmm.. haha!
and after that.. we played a prank on someone.. and i put words into pong's mouth that made him puke.. haha.. but to the person being pranked on: it's true that you're lucky!!! haha!
oh! you can hear the parade commands originating from padang from marina lo! and i saw the chinook helicopters carrying singapore flags flying across the sky.. and ya, crazy me got so so excited and shot a few pics of them.. too high on adrenaline.. :P
and i guess i shall end with a few random shots..
mum!! what a cute mum!
mum and sis in the car! :)
once again, i cannot feel more grateful to.. fate, destiny, whatever you call it, for putting all these people in my life, for me to love, to hold, to support me, to guide me.. i'm a lucky girl :)
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
just hopped by the girls's blog.. and im just overwhelmed by emotions.. i can never thank any Higher Being enough for giving me the brilliant friends i have now.. I just love love love everyone around me.. and i am so grateful to have them in my life.. i have no doubt in my mind that we will continue to grow up and grow old together.. i can just imagine all of us being godmums for each other's children.. having gatherings at someone's house.. all the children will be playing happily together, the ladies (us!) will be chatting and having a lot of fun as usual.. and gentlemen will be chatting and discussing god-knows-what together.. and then all of us will have a nice dinner.. and oh.. i'm going all soft imagining a cosy future with all my friends.. life with company is always a blessing :)
well... as all my darling girls know, i'm just burying myself in romance novels now.. ok, not all of them are about romance.. i gobbled two books yesterday.. party season and johnny angel by danielle steel.. 
johnny angel is such a.. sad book.. its a romance story.. not a typical boy-girl romance, but a story about the romance between a boy and his family.. the story's about this wonderful great boy, star athelete, class valedictorian, good natured, who was mercilessly taken away during an accident on the night of his prom.. leaving his parents, his girlfriend and siblings bereaved.. and yep.. a few months later, he came back as an angel, visible only to his mum and youngest brother (who couldn't speak due to trauma after a previous accident) and tries his best to heal all of them.. its such a heartwarming story.. so sad.. so.. heart wrenching.. and touching.. i was just crying non stop, littering the pages of the books with my tears.. its really a nice story of loving, letting go, second chances.. i totally loved it..
and i really love planting surprises.. it brightens up my life so so much.. and nothing beats the satisfaction and warmth of seeing the smile and joy twinkling in the eyes of the surprised.. it makes me happy just to see the ones around me happy.. perhaps that's why i chose what i chose to study.. so.. yep.. went to bugis with mum and sis yest.. and sis saw this wire-art thing.. that shop's brilliant.. they twist wires into keychains, handphone chains, bookmarks etc.. and my sis really wanted it.. but mum didn't wanna indulge her and she sulked the whole day.. no prozes for guessing.. i bought it for her and gave to her at home.. there's no denying the joy that simple act brought her, and me..
and yep.. there's a surprise coming up tonight that makes me real excited.. thanks for the big pillow wang.. :) happy 26 months!
my little panda sister is really smart.. in a bid to make my dad bring us to a holiday, she wrote a contract.. haha..
if u carn read what's written.. it basically goes.. if she gets top 3 in class and top 10 in school, then dad has to bring us to china, if he goes back on his promise, both mum and dad have to compensate her 1000 bucks each.. and in the case that she doesn't get top 3 or top 10, then mum will have to spend $$ to get her a tuition teacher.. haha.. she has a brilliant mind lo.. its a win situation for her no matter what happens.. she shud become a businesswoman.. so crafty!
haha.. i love posting pics nowadays.. :) and i love how time is accelerated when reading a storybook.. years can past in a matter of minutes.. and grant impatient people like me the wish of knowing what will happen in the future.. and i guess this weird time warp is the reason why people get unrealistic hopes.. they did not take into account the long periods of waiting, suffering, misery, before something good finally happens.. because things seem to happen instantly in books, we expect things to speed up in real life too.. well.. good things are always worth waiting for i guess.. i must really keep that in mind.. we have a whole life time to wait.. you just have to wait patiently for time to pass.. and good things will happen just when you dun realise it..
and have i told you guys how much i love you all? i guess i did, but i shall repeat it again.. i love you my friends!!! ALL of you!!
Sunday, June 19, 2005
i always enjoy reading "her say" or "his say" on cleo.. this week's "her say" column is really interesting..
Is it only about sex?
Has sex become the litmus test set by men? I think these men are just unwilling to put in further effort or tie until they get a 30-day shag guarantee. They enjoy your company but they enjoy it more when the time spent together includes bedtime. Think of it as friends with benefits. Basically it's a relationship on their terms and they're happy to hang around-- until you start wanting a real relationship.
The courtship rules of yore no longer apply. In an age of instant gratification, I've watched guys move on the moment you hesitate to grant entry. Romantic connections, sweet gestures, long chats and even simply getting well acquainted are all compressed within one sitting or totally dismissed. But guys, have you thought about what we women want? Give us more respect, take more effort and please go to seduction school school if you truly want to score.
Yep.. the topic pretty much sums it all up.. As we grow up, we hear about these kind of relationships.. or are they even fit to be called relationships? I feel so lucky and grateful that none of the guy friends i have now are this type.. I think that guys who only want sex are rubbish.. Really despise them. They're only fit to belong in the dumps. No relationship can be sustained on sex alone. Its the deep connection between the two.. the intimacy they feel even without sex.. the ease with which they behave around each other.. not having to think about what to say so that silences are not awkward.. Love and sex are 2 totally different things. nowadays all those instant-sex relationships are so superficial they make me shudder. What happened to relationships being a platform to discover your soulmate? I just hope that I will be so protected throughout my life.. and likewise for the rest of my female friends.. and that my guy pals will remain as great as they are.. and not see a woman as a fling or an object for sexual gratification. And of cos, vice versa, i hope no guys will fall prey to despicable who only want sex! I guess the safest bet now is to remain a virgin till you get married to make sure your partner married you for the right reasons!
"Marriage is a lottery in which men stake their liberty and women their happiness" -- Virginie de Rieux
"An archaeologist is the best husband a woman can get. The older she gets, the more interested he is in her." -- Agatha Christie
