Thursday, May 26, 2005
watching the repeat telecast of american idol 4.. ulu as it may sound, i have to confess that its my first episode of american idol.. i have never ever watched any episode of any series.. carrie sounded a little forced.. bo sings so easily.. i wish i can sing like them.. it'd be so great to be able to charm ppl with your voice.. *wish wish* haha.. all i can say is.. KENNY G rocks!! when he played "i believe i can fly".. my heart just melted lo.. what a soothing and romantic sound..
tomorrow's "eat with your family" day.. haha.. very funny.. i was thinking, its quite contradicting isn't it? those who implement it will mostly be government bodies.. private companies are too caught up with profits.. but.. gov bodies already have 5 day work weeks.. those in need of family bonding time *should* be those working in private companies right? haha so in the end it doesn't really help does it? ok my logic sounds a little warped.. but its the first thing that came to my mind.. :)
i wish i could post pictures from my hp.. took pics with kaining and eng (the computer technician in rulang).. eng's pictures are seriously funny.. he smiles with his eyes squeezed shut. super hilarious.. +) the driving simulator is really funny.. the other trainee had 4 accidents in total! and i had one near accident! all the 3 of us were laughing non stop cos we were screaming when we were about to get into accidents.. haha.. imagine screaming in the simulator room.. just funny..
i wanna watch movies! oh man.. who will watch with me? everyone seems to have caught star wars and some other nice shows like amityville horror or monster-in-law.. i want to watch too! desperately!!!
i realised that the image i portray to others does not really reflect who i really am.. like in rulang.. i realise that i say things i do not really mean.. as in.. not being a hypocrite.. but like.. playing up on issues that are not really that significant to me, and thus making myself out to be a different type of person.. makes ppl think im a pai kia, very havoc and stuff when i actually am not.. but well i can't help it.. i guess i was born to be a small "clown".. i say or do things that will perhaps "harm" my "image" just to liven the atmosphere or make ppl laugh.. and so far, i have not cared much about what ppl think about me from all the crap that i have said.. but today, something suddenly hit me. i realised that ppl who do not really know me that personally will probably see me in a not so positive light that is definitely not me.. but owells.. what can i do.. that clown side of me is still me right?
i wonder how it feels to win american idol. or.. any renowned competition.. i can feel all the hard work they put in.. and it makes me choke to imagine the overwhelming emotion they feel.
well.. jess.. if ppl tag stuff that are useful for ur self improvement, then heed their advice, if not, then dun care about the slammers. its the most important to be who you are..
bx.. im very glad that you have found a nice da jie jie.. :) so heartwarming..
