_living each day*

Friday, May 27, 2005

" The reason death sticks so closely to life isn't biological necessity-- it's envy. Life is so beautiful that death has fallen in love with it, a jealous, possessive love that grabs at what it can. But life leaps over oblivion lightly, losing only a thing or two of no importance, and gloom is but the passing shadow of a cloud."

" I have nothing to say of my working life, only that a tie is a noose, and inverted though it is, it will hang a man nonetheless if he's not careful."

my little rg squash girl will be back from some US state tonight from competition.. odyssey of the mind.. so pro right? so i dunno if there's squash training tomorrow. and my little china boy will be going to china.. so no tuition for 2 weeks after tomorrow.. w0w.. its amazing how holidays don't seem to have such a big impact on my life anymore. but soon it will.

nothing much to say.. just that time passes so fast its scary. its gonna be school term soon. its so scary. i shudder thinking of 5 years of non stop mugging.. chim chim terms.. and then you are just thrown into this deep pool called society and you have to fight your own way up and out. you are left to fend for yourself. no more parents to protect you and guide you and make decisions for you. you have to make the decisions on your own. decisions that are significant enough they can turn your life 180 degrees over.

and then, there's coming to terms with the new identity called 'adult'. and the many worries and responsibilities. i suddenly see things becoming a whirl. everything is nothing. and nothing is everything.

i wonder how atheists find comfort in this world where sometimes, you just have to leave things and entrust them with a spiritual supremity, cos if not, the uncertainties and worries will simply suffocate the burdened heart.

and i wonder how agnostics can feel safe trusting this Higher Being with their future and life when they are not even certain that this Being exists.

come what may. in the end, everything will work out fine. what goes around comes around. and eventually, everything will amount to nothingness.

__pondering* 11:25 PM :)