Wednesday, April 27, 2005
wow! i haven't blogged in 2 days? what a surprise.. haha.. anyway.. caught eye for a guy 2.. i din catch the fisrt series, so i had totally no expectations whatsoever.. so it really shocked me to see the..hmmm.. way the guys behave.. i mean.. i have never been exposed to these kinda guys before.. i guess we are all too young.. what consultant, radio presenter blah blah.. everyone i know now is a student.. haha.. i guess i had a rather constricted view of singaporean guys before this, or perhaps, i just didn't take in what i have read from magazines, or i haven't been to the happening places.. its so scary!! these guys are so attention grabbing and scary! some of them might be good looking, but.. character wise.. no no.. they are not mature enough i guess! denise keller is really confident and cool.. i think if i were in her shoes, i'll be stammering and shivering.. i will never be able to carry myself with such elegance, poise and confidence.. i think no guys will want to fight tooth and nail to get a date with me lo! *hysterical laugh* pardon my day dreaming haha.. i just find my day dream a little too absurd.. haha.. can't imagine it happening.. hahahaha..
but anyway, back to it.. *shudders*.. james is totally off.. if you have nothing to say, then don't talk and make a fool of yourself! haiyoh! i'm really shocked by the tactics and strategies that the guys employ to get her attention, and how they make snide remarks to get the others down.. eeee.. totally disgusting. all those cocky people and back stabbers.. aiyo.. this show is really an eye opener.. like a warning light to warn all us sheltered girls about how complicated the world outside can be! i mean, i didn't know what to expect, but i guess.. i'm still thought sg was some humble conservative society.. didn't know people are actually daring enough to show these ugly sides on tv.. i thought only the ang mohs are capable of that.. *racist*
so excited by dinner date with jess and mich, and class outing and og outing.. i can't stand loneliness and boredom and activity-less days no more.. so looking fwd to going out and getting a life.. getting a life is difficult alone, and when everyone else's working.. haha.. :)
happiness quote of the day:
Happiness comes more from loving than being loved; and often when our affection seems wounded it is only our vanity bleeding. To love, and to be hurt often, and to love again- this is the brave and happy life. --------- J.E. Buckrose
I guess true happiness comes from being loved and loving, to the same extent. loving someone wholeheartedly and yet not be loved in return is torturous. blindly giving and not receiving makes one resentful in the long run, so how can that beget happiness? man is not perfect, it is impossible to love without wanting something in return all the time..
The second line is deep.. from what i make out of the sentence, it sounds true.. when we thought that we are being hurt, most of the time, it is only our pride that is wounded.. our vanity bleeding.. we feel that we have lost face, embarrassed.. that's why we feel hurt..
The last line is a little weird.. who wants to be hurt often? indeed, it is brave, but its a bit idiotic.. it just means that after so many attempts at loving someone, you haven't wisen up enough to give your heart to the right person. you deserve to be hurt then~ haha.. so mean..
ok, i'm sure there's some deeper meaning beyond the superficial interpretation of the words.. but if you just take the quote at face value, it really does seem a little absurd..
