Transform me
searching every corner
not missing any nook
seeking out opportunities
to give life a new outlook
i've been hoping and praying
that someday somehow
a miracle will happen
from that moment on
i will know exactly what i want
the moment of enlightenment
the huge turning point
know exactly where to go
wishing something.. someone
will touch me from deep within
transform me forever
and from then on
my life will be changed..

=) hey b.. read about all those earthquakes in japan.. i hope the places you are going to are not close to the afflicted areas.. if not it'll be so worrying.. i want to be ur bridesmaid next time! *grin*.. but guess i'm the pot calling the kettle black.. i'm quite intent on going on the youth challenge's humanitarian trip to sri lanka.. it'll be such a meaningful experience.. out of my comfort zone, and i'll get to reach out to others.. my dad and my mum.. talking to them can be quite exasperating sometimes..

dad: ask your mum
mum: ask your dad
me to dad: i asked mum already, she said ask you
dad: ask her lo.. she say ok then ok lo..
me: are you sure? everytime you say ok then in the end you will grumble and grumble..
dad: where got grumble?
me: i'm sure you don't grumble! that time i went korea you said ok, in the end you blame mum for allowing me to go
dad: ask your mum la!
me to mum: dad say ask you.
mum: dun ask me, ask your dad
me: he say ask you, you say ask him, so in the end ask who? ok, i dun care, i'm going.

both of them are so afraid (or is it lazy?) to make the decision or claim responsibility for the decision, so i have made up my own mind. i want to go. i am going to go. i am very sure that when i tell them that i have already made arrangements to go, they will protest and then launch into long explanations and speeches.. sigh.. then they should make it now. if not i will really get ticked off.

i mean, life is just for a fleeting moment.. no one knows how long it will last.. i just want to do something really meaningful in this lifetime.. make a difference.. really make a difference.. change someone's life for the better.. be his/her guardian angel.. i hope nothing bad happens if i really do go for the trip, but if something really happens, if i have given my help to someone, i will have led a meaningful life.. :) death is afterall inevitable..

i believe that everything happens for a reason, and there is always a lesson to learn behind everything bad that happens.. i hope all of us will be able to rise above the present circumstances and learn from the hidden lessons.. its easy to preach.. but hard to fulfill.. :(