sigh.. just received the package from uni of york.. for psychology.. it is just so tempting to accept their offer, and the sg gov scholarship, and then fly to uk for 3 years, study psychology, come back and work for ministry of home affairs.. when i'm back, i'll only be.. 22? how young!? and what a long way to go! my whole career path is mapped out.. nicely.. my salary might be capped, but i dun have to pay a cent at all for my education! and i get paid for studying instead! and i have a job sitting there waiting for me when i graduate.. nothing to worry about.. oh gosh.. what a tempting thought.. york is such a nice place too.. looked thru the brochures.. the place is so inviting and warm.. so nice.. and psychology is really such a fun subject.. how the mind works in conjunction with the body.. how people think.. i am really very intrigued by the wonders of it all.. and york is well known for experimental psychology.. something i like.. oh gosh.. tempting tempting.. but i must admit.. the career prospects of having a psyc degree is not all that bright.. there's quite limited things i can do.. boo.. but at least it puts my life in order.. if i study med, it will take 6 yrs.. with housemanship.. 1 more year.. and then you have to start working as a junior doc for like 3 yrs before you are recognized as a not-junior doctor.. and you have to study abt 5 more yrs to specialise? how old will i be? 30+!! and i want to get married and have children! how is that gonna fit in? how to have a successful career and a nice warm family life? those two dun seem to go hand in hand.. =( haha.. so confusing.. gosh..
i wish i can see into the future.. ahhh.. if only it is possible for us to look into the future.. so that we can choose our path now.. and once we have chosen it, then forget that we have even looked at the future before.. its another impossible thought.. and i guess it takes thrill away from life.. aahh.. stop day dreaming baorong.. haha..
i wanna fly away.. escape.. we only live once.. why do we have to make such *agonizing* decisions?