Wednesday, April 13, 2005
it's been an interesting day.. engaged in a long intellectual conversation with my shige (ie. tim).. it's been ages since i kept in touch with him.. he's become more matured.. or rather, our conversation has become more matured.. heh.. somehow, the conversation turned to him and his girlfriend.. and i learnt that they broke up.. quite sad.. it's been 6 years.. so i asked him why.. and he said it's because they feel that they could not help each other to discover god anymore.. he told me about these few christian books.. titled "kiss goodbye to dating" and " the christian courtship" or sth to that extent.. i guess it makes a lot of sense.. many people enter relationships not knowing what they want.. just for fun.. because its trendy.. that's frivolous dating.. but in a proper courtship, both parties try to find out if the other party is the right one god made for them.. so when they enter a relationship, its a "wife-to-be" or "husband-to-be" scenario, not just "girlfriend" or "boyfriend".. i feel that it's utterly true.. a relationship is not a plaything.. something you get into on impulse.. because it not only concerns you, it concerns the other party too, and we all know that psychological impacts can cause more damage than physical ones.. hence, every relationship must be weighed and considered carefully..
and of course, i embarked on my NKF-show inspired question: if your gf has kidney probs and has to carry out dialysis for life, would you still want her? he gave an absolute yes without even thinking.. asked him why.. and of course it's related to god.. god is all-knowing.. he planned everything.. if you know that she is the one whom god gave to you as your partner, you will take care of her no matter what, because it's not only that she is your partner in knowing god, you are her partner too.. good answer.. touched by his staunch belief in christianity..
and of course.. i rattled on about my doubts about christianity.. he said "god is perfect, god is so perfect that he can't stand any sin. and all of us are sinners. but he loves us. so he sent his perfect son down to earth, who led a perfect life, and who died on the cross to cleanse the sins of all those who believe in him, so that they can be in his presence.." uh-huh.. why is god perfect? if he is perfect, why does he condemn those who don't believe in him? isn't he supposed to be generous? its somehow like "claiming credit" or something like that.. ok, perhaps "claiming credit" is too bad a phrase to use.. but i guess this act of condemning is a wee bit too selfish.. aaahhh.. told him all that.. and then we launched off into another religious conversation.. but nope, i'm still not convinced.. i'd rather take all the "good" points of the different religions and combine them together.. haha.. form a whole new religion.. *grin* that's mustahil (impossible) though.. one thing i believe is that people who are sincere christians have good moral values..
what i value about singapore's cosmopolitan env is that we can openly cast our doubts about each other's religions and not get bombed in the middle of the night.. that's the way religion is supposed to be.. god is generous and kind. why would he want people to die just because they dun believe in him? that's ridiculous? why would he want to wage war? (perhaps only against evil).. aahh.. the questions are endless.. many things that are happening in this world are crazy.. they are out o fthe world, they dun belong here.. i'm starting to believe in "end of the world".. sigh.. the many many disasters in the world are making my heart ache.. earthquakes, tsunamis, terrorist attacks, SARS, bird flu.. sigh.. it's so so sad.. sigh.. if only greed can be rinsed from the world..
both of us expressed our shock at the number of people who sleep around.. it's really scary.. look at cleo.. when they ask for opinions on sex related issues, those who answer are like only.. 21?22? and they answer like pros! it makes me shiver to think about how vibrant the sex scene is beneath the protection that being in a good school has given us.. one night stands, flings.. those people who crave and yearn for physical intimacy, and yet shun away from responsibility and committment.. the balance has tipped too much.. in the past, women got shot for talking to men, and now, women and men are having sex like nobody's business.. can't the balance be in the middle? scary.. we should be in the era of conserberalism.. that will be an ideal situation.. :)
haha.. and yeah peeps.. yiming went for OCS commissioning ball.. tim said that if there was an award for "most outrageous dressing", she will win it.. her tan line was so obvious, she was wearing so little.. exposing so much.. and she was the partner of this guy who.. ahem.. you know what.. i wonder what she has been up to.. reminds me of what you guys witnessed about her and james.. bah..
but to each his/her own.. i just wish for the best for everyone.. :)
