" have faith in your worth as a person" -- Christopher Reeves
such simple words. a simple sentence that means nothing much until you look beyond the surface. no matter how depressed we get, no matter what we lose, our faith in our worth as a person was never lost. even if we felt that life was no longer meaningful, it was life which has lost its worth, not us. i guess its a change in perspective. read a chapter of Mr Reeves' book "Nothing is impossible" today, and it got me pondering.. if i were him, will i be brave enough to live on? [ his spinal cord was severed completely a few cm below the brain stem, rendering him paralysed from head down] to live on just to be a burden to those whom i love.. if i just die, the pain i bring to others will be temporary, but if i choose to continue living, i am only going to restrict the lives of others.. for as long as i live, or they live.. i imagine myself hooked up to this respirator, unable to breathe on my own, having to have a machine pump oxygen into my lungs constantly, all my life.. having to trouble people.. ending everything there and then seems a more tempting offer. just like what the lead actress in million dollar baby chose to do. begged her coach to perform euthanasia.. because, your faith in your worth as a person is completely lost. thinking about his plight makes me guilty. guilty of complaining so much about the little glitches in my smooth sailing life.. i feel so lucky.. yet ungrateful me is still uncontented.. yep.. the greatest evil of man is greed. let's all not take whatever we have in life for granted!