Saturday, February 05, 2005
i'm so bored so bored so bored so bored so bored so bored so bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored.. help me.. if only there's a job that i can do whenever i'm bored.. bah.. that sounds like the kind of bf bx n i wanted when we were in sec sch.. a bf who is there when we want him to be.. doesn't bug us when we dun wan him there.. listens to us patiently while we can do wadeva we wan to him.. haha.. think the description fits a robot.. now i wan this kind of job.. bah.. i am so so so bored.. so so so so SO bored.. bx.. its my turn today.. hows ur headache.. its qt recurring right? betta do sth abt it.. :( BORED......... BORED BORED... everyone will be out with their bf right? freak... BORED BORED BORED..... i think i shall just sit here and type the word "bored" over and over again.. help me.. help me.. get me out of boredom.. freak freak.. bored bored.. sorry this is a brainless entry.. bored bored bored.. boridy bored.. boredy bored.. freak freak.. freaking bored... bored bored bored bored bored bored.. bOrEd... bboorreedd...BOred.. BORed..BoREd.. laalaaa bored bored bored.. laalaalaaaaaaa hush hush bored bored.. what can i do?? lalalalalalaaaaaa... *bored i'm so bored damn it i'm so bored! *clap clap* bored i'm so bored damn it i'm so bored *clap clap* -repeat till u see the handsign turn to 0- ok.. i think i'm crazy.. BAH...
life loses meaning when you have nothing to do.. nothing to look forward to.. i understand it now.. i think i'm destined for the lao lu ming.. its really sad to have no more meaning in life.. can understand why ppl turn to suicide.. imagine.. all your life, you have worked hard towards this goal of earning all the money in the world.. and suddenly you become bankrupt.. or.. you put your heart and soul into loving this person such that your life revolves around him or her, and suddenly that person dies or want to break up with you.. or your family dies in some accident.. or.. i dunno.. life has no more goal.. no more meaning.. living is merely existing.. nothing much to do.. you dun feel like doing anything also.. and the mind is especially active when you have nothing much to do, the unhappy thoughts just get unleashed like a tap.. and then u feel so horrible about yourself.. and u either sink into depression or think of suicide.. but actually, depression leads to suicide too.. so either way, you are dead meat.. bwahahaha.. actually i wonder what can a psychologist do?? nobody can help that person unless he wants to help himself! psychology (the counselling part) is so subjective! a person can give all the fake answers! imagine a questionaire asking you if you have recurring thoughts of suicide or feel that life has no more meaning.. how obvious is that? of cos its trying to see whether u r suicidal! a person who doesn't want help can just lie la! oh crap whatever.. its just plain stupid..
