_living each day*

Monday, December 20, 2004

well.. i had many thoughts yesterday..

i finally understood the whole meaning of " it's impossible for 2 people to get anywhere together when they start out with two different aims". . or perhaps, when their aims are different but are not parallel to each other in any slightest bit.. this was something abstract, kind of hard for me to grasp fully, for i naively thought that in the end, everything will work out fine.. yep.. in the end, everything might work out fine, because of compromise.. the stronger party compromises, because the weaker party has no more chip to play with, no way to go.. :) thanks for compromising, wang :)

its easy to feel alone even though you are in a big group.. i can learn to adapt.. to change myself so that i don't feel alone anymore, or adapt to the loneliness.. ok.. think i'm making matters sound a little too grave.. haha.. but ya.. my way of adapting to loneliness- think. think about anything and nothing. find something to amuse yourself with, while all the time, wishing that some divine power would let you just disappear and no one would notice. well, i can try to change, but i dunno how to.. owells..told myself i will just be myself.. yep.. and in the end.. i dunno if that was who i was.. that girl sitting there smiling at anything.. reading some unknown book.. in the end, i guess that person was me.. yep.. just another side of me..

MVP valentine is so nice.. sigh.. i'm crying all over again.. why..

__pondering* 10:56 AM :)