Monday, August 16, 2004
:) slept for 1.5 hrs in the council room b4 maths s today.. so that makes up 5 hours of sleep.. and that adds up to about i dunno how many hours of sleep in the past 2 weeeks or so.. :) will uni be worse? haha.. sleeping less is bad.. it makes "everybody" so short tempered and get angry with each other so easily.. and that in turn makes u feel worse.. i wish there was this super essence that could keep people awake and most importantly alert.. haha.. so that students can become super students and mug all day long..maybe danny can invent that if he ever decides to become a researcher.. it'd defintely be a big hit in town.. haha.. shuo lai shuo qu.. its all qin shi huang's fault.. or is it some other emperor.. what imperial exams.. :( sighx~
met mr eric lee as i walked down the stairs and waved to him happily.. and what surprised me was that he actually said "wow.. you're constantly so cheerful and bubbly.. really wonder how yu do it.." or wtte.. cant really remember.. and he actually remembered we took a photo last teacher's day.. (though i carn remember it at all).. short term memory.. told yh when i went back to the canteen.. and he gave me that "haha.. i'm so sure!" laugh.. haha.. of cos i know that what mr lee said isn't true.. i think that people normally show the worst sides of themselves to the people closest to them.. that is so true for me.. i might appear generally cheerful to the general public.. but yeah.. who can ever know the big rolling waves splashing about inside me.. except for those close to me that is.. so i'm just wanna say sorry to anyone reading this and who has suffered from my unreasonable moodswings which were totally uncalled for.. *sincere apologies!* i have a real bad temper.. but i'm working on it and thank god its improving! :)
pong once told me that people normally show their worst sides and flare up at the people who love them most and care for them the most, cos they know that these are the people who wun judge them by their tempers and stuff.. and yeah i agree that this is so wrong.. cos these people are the ones who matter the most in the end.. tbey are the ones who are going to be with you through it all.. and its simply unfair to let them suffer the consequences of ur wrath when all they're doing is to be there for you.. :) i know the theory.. but applying it in practical is hard..
jia lun popped his shoulder while playing touch rug today.. :( my heart ached as i saw him wincing with every step he took as he was escorted by the teachers to the clinic.. sigh.. 2nd time i heard.. :( how painful.. hope it heals soon.. but i doubt it'll take very fast.. my ankle isn't even healed from the bad sprain in jan.. hope he gets well soon! :]
i always feel so happy to blog.. :) lets me know that i know what's going on with my life.. and gives me the assurance that i'm not just surviving my life.. but actually living it.. as for now.. back to thermody for chem lec test tml~ :( screwed once again.. sigh~
