Saturday, August 07, 2004
hi.. things are so boring.. i think i am that kind of person who needs some exciting new thing happening in my life everyday.. or at least 3 out of 4 days to consider my life as being exciting.. its so boring now la.. even though yest was nat day celebration and i socred some brilliant goals during handball and tried to stick my leg everywhere to touch the ball during soccer.. its just so boring today.. gosh.. and the weather's killing me.. its freaking hot la.. gettin a headache.. eikes.. that day wong shiming and some other super zai seniors came to give a talk on yale princeton and harvard u.. its a talk that i find it hard to forget.. cos.. i'm just so envious.. as in.. envious that they got the security of a place at a good u.. while i'm bobbing up and down in this insecurity.. dying la.. prelims.. a's.. pracs.. personal statement.. uni choice.. been asking a few seniors abt med in uk.. but they dun seem to be giving me the ans that i want to hear.. shiming and gang.. they're super zai la.. i can nv match up to them.. and i dun think i will try to.. cos its impossible.. making myself sadder only.. i just wish that i can get admitted into a good uni.. and get thru my education and make lotsa friends and have a good time overseas and do well in my exams.. and come back and be a great doc.. the 2 pres scholars are veh charismatic.. shiming and ervin.. and one can tell that they're really the creme de la creme.. no wonder they got into harvard and yale.. i'm so uncertain abt everything.. boo.. so many good people.. so little spaces.. i wish i could know what's going to happen.. god help me.. i hate this stage of my life.. please let me get out of it.. i've nv been so uncertain in my life..
as i was listening to radio.. i was just thinking.. between some pop star like britney and a good scholar.. i think being a scholar is so much better.. prob u dun get as much publicity and fame as the stars.. but you do get respect.. true respect from people because u r worthy of their respect.. imagine asking brit or jay-z some intellectual question.. like.. who is the scretary general of UN now.. haha.. it'll be such a joke..
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and do you guys remember that stupid disgusting squasher from ac.. he went to aust to study or anything.. the super dirty minded one..forgot his name.. biang.. he just msned me and told me he dreamt of me.. and then dunno y said that i'll dream of us being in bed together.. then the bed will get too hot cos he's hot and i'm hot.. gosh.. revolting.. told him to shut up and scram off.. then he was like.. "i said u are hot and u told me to shut up.. its a compliment k? its a fact that i'm hot and i'm putting u in my league.. u shud be honoured.. now you're making me cry.."
oh shucks.. wunder how many girls have been cheated by him.. what a disgusting young man with such a polluted mind.. i wish someone can save him from all the dirt his neurones are drowning in.
but well.. talking abt tt reminds me of all the secondary school days.. dun miss the part in rg.. but i really miss the part in COE.. with vivian.. jon teh.. shoby.. fahim.. sean.. tim.. shawn.. yuting.. hp.. bx.. the 3/4 games.. the pt.. the matches.. the time viv me hp and shoby's brother got into some mess and we were at the pathway trying to 'sort out' our feelings.. the times we went to fahim's house and tried to cook and took afternoon naps.. the hilton trips.. i wish time would rewind.. i wanna live all those again.. not possible.. just a dream.. right now.. the tv is the only way i can escape from reality.. haiz~
