_living each day*

Monday, August 23, 2004

haha it amazing how most of us know all these crap circulated in mails and stuff are probably just untrue crap.. but yet are still so interested and excited to read it.. guess humans just have this curiosity to find out what they are supposed to be and how others might perceive them to be.. innate.. i love these kinda complex thinking.. :) interesting..

realised that i am very very utterly immature.. i have been very very immature in dealing with many things.. very immature.. most of the times, i do not think about the consequences of my actions, because the "wonderful" feeling of committing the act at that time just tempts me beyond rational thought.. it always happens.. and then i start to regret.. i am just unable to pull myself out from that tangle of mess at that time and see the situation in a different light.. its like i'm glued to the situation.. or perhaps.. i don't want to be unglued.. cos i know that most probably, what i'm doing is going to be wrong, and i would be deprived the momentary pleasure..

its hard being a middle person.. really.. especially when you don't know which side you're hearing is true.. perhaps both are true.. just different perspectives.. perhaps both are untrue, meant to sway listeners to their sides.. perhaps both are true to a certain extent, exaggerated in some ways.. its confusing.. i'm starting to think that sometimes facts are not facts.. and human emotions are so scary in determining the impartiality of your judgement.. emotions cannot be trusted.. humans have so many different sides.. i tend to look on their good sides and forget about their bad.. is that good or bad? people have hurt me and yet i have forgiven them.. man is so confusing.. why can't we just view a paper as a piece of paper, but as a.. i dunno .. :(

__pondering* 11:39 PM :)