Tuesday, June 08, 2004
hey hey!! :) noe wad? betty got through Singapore Idol Auditions round 1!! :) hee.. when i received her sms.. i was so happy i almost screamed! but of cos i couldn't cos i was outside.. waiting to watch harry potter with the class.. haha.. really feel so happy for her.. called her immediately.. and we chatted for like 1 hour? haha.. remember during sec3 or sec4.. both of us were practising real hard for the talentime.. haha.. went to Jurong Point to buy the karaok version of Colours of the Wind..it was real hard to find the song.. then we went back to my house to practise till real late.. haha.. then the next day.. we went to mediacorp together.. climbed that hill together and sweated like hell.. went up to take the application form.. just to realise that we are too young for the competition.. haha.. we were only 16 or 17.. and only 18 and above can take part.. we felt to cheated.. then we descended the hill and it started raining.. at that shelter there was this drink machine.. and betty was veh pissed (with talentime) and she stole 1 can of drink from the machine.. haha.. at that time a cleaner walked past and asked betty wad she was doing.. and betty hurriedly said that the machine ate her money.. din give her drink.. and the cleaner had to open the machine and give one can to her.. haha.. its real funny.. the cleaner was offering us a drink that we din even pay for! haha! this kinda small mischief.. i'll nv forget.. now.. betty finally has the chance to realize her dream.. she always wanted to be a singer.. haha.. just like i do.. just that she has the guts to pursue wad she wants and she actively sources for opportunities to realise her dreams.. while i just sit at home and daydream away and get caught in the horrible rat race. haha.. betty and i talked for so long.. it felt so good to talk to a close friend.. an old friend.. were talking about how our clique is not a clique anymore.. everyone's too busy to mind other's business..we don't go out.. we dun really contact each other so often.. maybe jess jamie mich do.. but the rest of us don't.. we're all not that close anymore.. its quite sad.. sigh.. hopefully.. after A's. everything will be better.. when all of us dun have to study... maybe we can all work together.. or go out after work to chill.. hopefully go to same uni.. and stuff.. yadayada..we also talked abt ppl changing.. yeah... people do change a lot.. its scary.. growing up brings about changes.. whether you want it or not.. its scary.. but i guess its kinda fun too? haha.. i really dun wanna mug.. everyone's mugging hard ya? haha.. sigh.. mug and then? get caught in the rat race all over again.. yh and i were talking that day.. how good it wld be if we could go live by the sea or in the mountains.. away from all these competition.. from all the stress of the city and industralisation.. survive on subsistence living.. no material wealth.. but just enough to get by day to day.. enjoy the world just as it is.. but we concluded that.. the choice to live that way is always there.. its just that we cannot let go of what we have now.. sigh.. we are too zhi2 zhou2 with regards to what we possess.. even if one day.. somebody made all the necessary arrangements for me to live by the sea.. i wouldn't be able to go.. even though i've always dreamed about it.. cos i wun be able to let go of the industralised dreams.. dreams of making it big.. of the material comfort that the city gives me and the rural does not.. the industralised leisure activities.. not being able to get used to the prolong slow pace of the rural area.. the different kind of lifestyle that makes u feel as if you are not achieving anything.. that you seem to have no dreams no aspirations no ambition.. i think its all conditioning.. we were brought up from young to compete.. its pogrammed inside.. no way to change.. hopeefully i will die by the countryside.. by the sea.. and not admidst the rat race..
